Waiting For Now

Sometimes I forget to live in the moment.

I’m so focused all the time on my “next step” or what is going to happen in the months and years to come, that I forget about the days I’m living right now.  Sometimes an entire day will go by and I’ll realize that I wasn’t fully living that day out.  I can spend hours a day thinking about how my life will look after SOMD, YWAM, marriage, etc.  And in this I’m missing out on what God wants to do in me right now. 

I’ve noticed that especially in the last few months, I feel like I’ve been in a waiting room.  Like I’m just waiting each day out until finally I get to move on to the next thing.  I’m sitting in a room, twiddling my thumbs, anticipating when it’ll finally be my turn to see the doctor.  All the while thinking about all the other things I should be doing at the time. 

Waiting for what God has to show me as my next step doesn’t mean that I have to push the “pause” button on my life now.  I didn’t realize how often I do this until I recently listened to a sermon that discussed the entire subject of waiting.  In summary, the message conveyed that if God has put you into a waiting period… then you’d better be using your time wisely.  How you spend every moment of every day matters.  Whether watching TV or Facebook Stalking; reading the Bible or investing in people’s lives. 

The things that your days are consumed with are the things that will matter most to you in life.  So if I’m sitting around all day worrying about where God wants to send me after SOMD or how I’m going to get the finances to do so, then those things will matter most to me.  Then I’ll be stuck in a state of worry and anxiety until God reveals his plans to me.  This will most likely become a pattern throughout my life, distracting me from what I should be focusing on. 

What I want to be focusing on are the things that will matter the most in this life, like growth in my relationship with God and with others.  Without growth in my relationship with God, I’ll end up living a life where I’m unsure about what God’s truth is.  I’ll be consumed with what the world sees as truth instead of seeking God for his thoughts.

Playing the waiting game isn’t very fun, though sometimes it’s necessary.  But that doesn’t mean I have to miss out on opportunities with God, with friends, family, etc. in the process.  Because God wants to do something in me every single day, and for each moment I spend thinking about “what’s next” I run the risk of missing out on what that might be.  So no more for me!  I’m just going to have to trust God that He’ll show me His plans for me in His perfect timing.  Just like it’s supposed to be. 

Love you all and hope you have an amazing 4th of July!